Until you do, you will not.

There has been a thought that I have consistently defeated out here.

Its a simple one. It goes "I cannot do this."

Soon, this enemy will be vanquished for good.

The first instance that really stands out for me was my first day tramp(intensive hike) somewhere around the Fox Glacier. It was an 4 hour trek up a mountain and a 4 hour mess coming down.

About an hour in, I actually thought I couldn't proceed. Imposing walls stood before me many a time. I climbed and I climbed and thought I had reached my peak many times. My lungs strained against years of smoking. My legs and arms throbbed with each step up. The only thing that kept me going was the belief that I could do it, that I would do it. And I did. We made it to the top. We were rained and hailed upon during lunch. I fell at least 5 times on my way down and stepped out of that forest with at a few whopper bruises and cuts to go with em....but I did what I had thought impossible.

Examples abound...sky diving, other hikes, even semmingly minute things as telling embarrassing truths and hopping on rocks across rivers.

Its all possible. Perception really does affect reality. I don't intend to let this slip away. Life is going to get more and more interesting as I start to accomplish goals that I require of myself rather than those required of me.

+30 to both Endurance and Willpower.